Sleeping habits

I only have time for a quick blog before bed. It's about 12:30 in the morning and it has been a quiet night at home. I got a bit of work done and played on the Internet a bunch. Now I am thinking about sleep. I'm not so sure why I want to sleep. I'm not tired. I slept in very late today and am pretty well rested. I think I just want to go to sleep so that I can get back to a normal sleeping cycle. Yeah, right! Like that is ever going to be possible. LOL So why do I enjoy staying up so late? It probably has to do with my disease. It takes me awhile to get moving in the morning. Some mornings are worse than others, of course. But in general, mornings are difficult for me. That's when I feel the pain for all the things I did the previous day. If I'm on my feet a lot one day, I can expect to have a rough time the following morning. It can take several hours just to get out of bed. On bad days, I'm lucky if I make it to the couch. For the most part, night time is my best time. My joints are loose and I'm able to move around pretty good. When I am feeling good, it's hard for me to go to sleep. I dread how I am going to feel the next morning. On the other hand, there are nights when I am in so much pain that I can't sleep at all. Tonight, I feel fortunate that I don't have much pain and I should be able to fall asleep pretty quickly. I am reminded of a Metallica song... "Until It Sleeps". Some say that the song is about drug abuse, while others argue that James wrote it to help deal with the death of his father, who died from cancer. Either way, it's about something that controls the body. And on that note, it's time for Sandman to sleep.....

Where do I take this pain of mine I run but it stays right by my side So tear me open and pour me out There's things inside that scream and shout And the pain still hates me So hold me until it sleeps Just like the curse, just like the stray You feed it once and now it stays Now it stays So tear me open but beware There's things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me until I'm clean It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you so hold me Until it sleeps So tell me why you've chosen me Don't want your grip Don't want your greed Don't want it I'll tear me open make you gone No more can you hurt anyone And the fear still shakes me So hold me, until it sleeps It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps (x4) I Don't want it want it want it want it want it No So tear me open but beware There's things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me 'til I'm clean I'll tear thee open make you gone No longer will you hurt anyone And the hate still shapes me So hold me until it sleeps (x5)